But I’m not going to say it for a while. I’ll be taking a break to focus on ME. I’ve been dealing with severe anxiety for the last five years, and by “dealing with”, I really mean “being run over by”. It’s time to take time for myself, learn to relax, see more doctors, and get my life and my stress response back under control. If you’ve traveled with me or if we are friends IRL, you’ve seen how this has taken a toll on my body, my happiness, and my personality. It has caused me to become a recluse, struggle with basic tasks like walking, quit jobs, and to have serious attacks in places like the grocery store and The Vatican 😂. Without getting into the details of my illness, let me just say that if you know someone who is struggling with anxiety, be there for them when they say they can’t leave the house. Be there for them when they don’t feel like leaving the safety of the sofa and their Gilmore Girls reruns. My husband and my friends have, and I can never thank them enough.
But as I said, I have SO much to say still! So I will be back with more travel advice and embarrassing stories as soon as I can! Thanks for staying with me! ❤
7-10-19: Finally, FINALLY, after so many years of going to doctor after doctor and having test after test ran, I have been officially diagnosed. I actually got this diagnoses back in March but just haven’t felt like posting about it yet, too much has been going on! I’m happy to say, though, that there will be no more “oh, it’s just anxiety, you’ll survive”, no more “it’s all in your head, see a psychologist.” I have FND and FND Tremors (Functional Neurological Disorder) also called Conversion Disorder. It is a highly misdiagnosed and under diagnosed illness, mostly because the symptoms do NOT show up on any tests or labs performed by the majority of doctors, and without results being visible on tests, they think there can not possibly be anything wrong with you. Basically, the best description I’ve read is that it’s not a hardware problem, it’s a software problem. Without getting into too many details which I will probably get wrong, here are the links so you can learn more about it if you wish!